No, not on this blog (though it almost seems that way with my lack of posting, but I have met so many great people - I don't plan to ever get rid of this OR my fetish.

But my current situation is just too damn vanilla for my fetish to come into play. He doesn't want to, he doesn't do it and he doesn't understand my need for it. Nor does he think I'm serious. No matter what I tell him, or how many different ways I say it, he thinks its all a game, its funny, whatever.

So - I hearby give up on ever having it in this relationship. He is far too vanilla, and quite frankly, that's fine.

Of course, I don't know what that means for our future. *sigh*