See, I told you he wouldn't do it. He didn't spank me. He never does. It's all talk. No follow through. I miss..... never mind. That's in the past.

Now he keep's threatening me with:

"Just wait until tomorrow." I'm wondering - for what? What's the difference between tonight and tomorrow night. Hmmm baby?

Wanna know a secret though?

I'm starting to not care anymore. Is that horrible or what? I just... again... in the past. Never mind.

I miss having my guy (not this guy) take control - when he pins my hand into his hand or grabs my wrist so I cannot cover. Why? I have no clue, I just miss it. I guess I love that brief yet fleeting feeling of total loss of control, total power by my man. God I being spanked. How sick is that?

But at any rate, again I won. Only I think perhaps its more like I lost....

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